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we tried him for crucifixion today
[hate is no longer yours. . .we all share it too friendly]
hunger for a sweet remedy of this dark tranquility darkening [my world], i'm wishfully thinking about us being together again. would it work or is it something i should forget about? if we know it's impossible to even run for, why are we still breathing? fish nets and trapts set apon the ground and we're in search for
. it's hard to tell when your eyes are lowered that you even want to look at me as i walk by, maybe i should have said hello, but what would that have done, we would've past by anyway without a single word exchanged. so i'm searching for someone esle to replace you, i haven't had much luck, there's no one that can and i feel [my heart] would not allow such act of treason. i feel i should stay loyal and musn't take it apon myself to allow myself for another entrance, i'm not going to open up [my world] for exposure, sometimes i loved to make a mark, scar myself with a letter that would damn me of a sin committed and forever frowned apon for such a letter is damnation. under all such circumstance i'm sorry i'm not able to believe that you even have the thought of returning or even remain loyalty in its pure state. please just let me embroider this scarlet letter apon the soft skin of [my chest].
for treason because i don't think i would be able to live without love, without it i am nothing but a wretch with full emotion of sorrow and grief.
sorry we have to be wretched like this
we're beautiful when we turn bright red having contempt for each other. i don't hate you but i do despise you, but somewhere inside myself i still love you, a time in [my life] you gave me happiness but you took it all away when you hastely took off for your departure. it's ugly, having it so dangerous and difficult for me to even express myself to you, just to let you understand how i feel about us. don't you feel any kind of remorse for your actions?, you've caused me much displeasure in being anything to you. it's a value to me, your heart, it gives off invisible emotion but so strongly with hate and frowns. does it please you to have such an angry face all the time? you never smile anymore and i wonder if that is because of me, because of the things i've done to hurt you, or is it that you know you miss me too? sometimes it's fortunate of me to stumble apon our memories, i really do reminise back to those times, and it hurts me, it kills me to see that we easily gave that up, when we know nothing esle in the world would make us happier. i feel happiness now, it hasn't been this REAL for a long time, i kind of feel selfish because i don't know, i'm only assuming that this is what you feel inside, i might be wrong, and that is what i am afraid of, you not even caring one second of time about what we were. it's a pain we must all go through, yet most of the time i feel i must live with it every waking moment of [my life], i long for it to be a dream, an illusion [my mind] creates but if it did i would be able to control it, wouldn't i?
you have your
pointed at my head
I'm in a car underwater with time to kill,
Thinking back I forgot to tell you this,
I didn’t care that you left and abandoned me,
What hurts more is I would still die for you.
-Armor For Sleep
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answer these questions please....
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
33. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
34. Are you going to put this on your xanga and see what I say about you? |
